I’m trying to wrap my head around what happened here, and that’s probably my first mistake but I digress. Late 30s.
What started out as a quick introduction call turned into multiple hour long discussions about all sorts of things. Turns out we have a ton in common and get along really well, sweet!
So we get to the date, and it’s going well. Kisses get initiated by both parties, and honestly it was more intimate than I was expecting. The venue was closing and we decided to walk and talk for a bit longer before calling it a night. I put my hand on her back and that’s when it ended abruptly and she decided to leave. I was surprised but, the lady wants what the lady wants. One final kiss and I asked her to drive safe, we had another extended phone call later that night and agreed it went well and agreed to setup a 2nd. I was a bit surprised the intimate kissing didn’t elicit the same response as the hand motion did, but I guess that’s what dating’s for eh?
I threw out a few ideas for date 2 that didn’t quite land, but to be fair, we hadn’t really discussed what we’d be doing so I just tried finding things to get out of the house, wasn’t sure how intimate to make a 2nd date after how the 1st ended, you know? She came back with a date in the park, and actually asked “wanna cuddle and make out under a tree?”. Hell yes I do!
Then I touched her upper back again and it ended abruptly, again lol. This time it meant incompatibility, because her heart was racing and she was having a hard time getting words out. I did notice the struggle to speak but just sat patiently not really thinking anything of it. In addition to this I was informed things moved faster than expected, which is understandable, but it also seemed to be going well.
Now, I’m told all the flags were green, “it’s not you”, etc. which is hard to digest in the moment, something was clearly awry, right?
Like if this was a “I’m not into you” situation, the 2nd date talk wouldn’t have even happened. Did I manage to cause a trauma response with my behavior..or what the hell just happened? From highs to lows in like 72 hours 😅
